27 April, 2007
This is the day I gonna say something specially to someone and everyone...
I know people will think, why am i making decision so fast. I cant give my reason to it but all i know, I'm doing things based on my feeling. I know some of you might think I shouldn't do things based on feeling but too bad, I'm a feeler. This is the fact.
I remembered there is one a person who told me that my ideal kind of boyfriend and relationship is impossible, is a fantasy. I tried to believe and hoping to change myself but facts let me believe myself. The same person mentioned if i were to choose my partner, i should choose the one who is able to help me in my life. I'm sorry to mention that, I'm not able to do so. That is why my decision was made confirmed that instant. I do not need my partner to be helpful in my life because that should be a partner in career but in love. Love is what should be in a relationship.
The fact that is surfaced in my life is that, there is someone matches the standard that i made as ideal. Or I can say, far more better than my ideal.Everything happening in my life is so ideal now. I can never predict what can happen in the future, but I know at least I had proven myself that my ideal type do exist. Even if it only last for a short moment, I'm contented. In my life, too many things had happened. People around me did wrong to me, and I did wrong to people too. I'm learning, learning hard to handle things in a correct way. But I know, I'll still follow my feeling after all.
My life is so beautifully pictured with -him- by my side. Yes, the him is Gabriel Lim. People might think whether is that a true love, because things happening to both of us are too fast.Far too fast to predict. Our first conversation marked our destiny. The chalet pulls us closer and let me realize how much you wanted to protect me, how you don't wish to see me angry even after you are drunk and totally lost your mind. Every small little things you did, make me feel I'm well protected. You are the first to let me feel what exactly sense of security is about. This feeling is great because I feel that with you around, there is nothing to fear about. Because you will be there to protect me.You did everything that I like, everything.
For once I did something I had never done before. I was amazed by myself I would actually don't bother about anything and travel all the way from NP to NYP to give you a surprise. I was totally not bothered by the traveling nor my tiredness but to reach your school asap because I wanted to see you. I wanted to see your smile because of my surprise. I feel so great to see the smile on your face. You always make the effort to meet me though I know you are really feeling tired. I know you are getting tired from all the traveling but you just carry on. I'm very happy yesterday you came down to my school to give me the surprise. Though the surprise is kind of predicted by me. But thank you very much.
Lao gong, remember this! I will never mind the gap of our age. What's most important is the love that matter. Let us work together to help us achieve our goal. You should know what goal I'm referring to. Please don't worry that when you went out to work and lack the time to be with me and afraid I'll feel unhappy, because I know you are working hard to achieve the goal. I'm waiting for the day you could ask me that question.
My someone is my dearest Lao gong, Gabriel Lim.
三月二十四日，我们第一次相遇。
四月十九日，两点四十五分，你对我说的第一次“我爱你”。
四月二十日，四点零五分，我对你说的第一次“我爱你”。
四月二十日，四点零二分，我答应了你，正式的在一起。
你的最大幸福，是发现了我爱你。
而我的最大幸福，是发现有你爱我。
# 幸福 －－》 有你才会有。 。 。*
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